I have an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.
The angel has a soft voice. If I talk at normal volume I tend not to hear her. I speak over her without even realising it. Sometimes I speak over her deliberately, because I can. If I'm shouting I even forget that she is there.
The devil has a loud and clear voice. Sometimes all I can hear is the devil. The devil is in my head. Slowly chipping away at my confidence. Nonchalantly picking away at my good intentions. Greedily eating away at my energy reserves. The devil is my mind's screensaver.
The devil says 'why did you think this was going to be easy?'.
The devil says 'go on, shout louder, your normal voice isn't effective'.
The devil says 'stick the television on, have a bit of peace and quiet'.
The devil says 'give them pizza again, they'll only throw anything else on the floor'.
The devil says 'pretend you can't hear them calling'.
The devil says 'you're not cut out for this, perhaps you should go back to work, let someone else look after them'.
The angel says 'you are a good mother'.
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This post was written as part of the Sleep is for the Weak Writing Workshop. This week I chose prompt no.2 What demon(s) are you battling right now?
This post was written as part of the Sleep is for the Weak Writing Workshop. This week I chose prompt no.2 What demon(s) are you battling right now?
I think I have the same devil's as you, but then I guess most mothers do!!
ReplyDeleteCan you send the angel over to mine...I need to hear her mutter those words into my ear!
ReplyDeleteI think the devil may have a couple of good points there, especially about the TV and the pizza!
ReplyDeleteLovely post, reminding us that we all have the good and the bad within us!
ReplyDeleteMine say "Have the chocolate"...."no don't,"
ReplyDeleteDon't be too tough on yourself though. X
This is great, Sandy :)
ReplyDeleteI'm going to give your angel a loudhailer.
ReplyDeleteOh I like that 'the devil is my mind's screensaver.'
ReplyDeleteThe angel will win out. I'm sure of it.
The Mad House, isn't self-doubt a terrible thing?!
ReplyDeleteMuummmeeeee, consider her sent x
Geeky Mummy, I know, who doesn't like pizza and TV?!
B, yes we do. I guess we just need to tune in to the angel more often!
Nova, oh yes, the devil is big on the 'have some chocolate' mantra here too! x
Nickie, thank you :-)
ReplyDeleteKelly, she needs one, I can hardly hear her! x
Deer Baby, thank you. I hope so! x
I'm not sure where my angel went! She's very quiet these days ;)
ReplyDeleteGreat post honey. You tell that silly devil to shut his mouth x
Josie, thank you. He is a loud mouth, but he's all talk and no trousers!! x
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